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Just because that money ALONE is not enough does NOT mean money is not important. As matter of fact, since humans invented money for the more complicated trading (than barter), making money has been the most important means for us to survive. So if we agree that survival is the most important thing for our life, money naturally becomes the most important thing in our life.

So people who say money is confused about the difference between sufficient condition and necessary condition.

(Sorry that I currently do not have any more mature thoughts to write. lol)

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I just read a Chinese parable another day. It says an old man was asked which one is more important, the Sun or the Moon. The old man thought for a long while and answered “the Moon”.

“Why?”

“Because the Moon shines in the night when we especially need it; the Sun shine in the day when it’s already light.”

I found it inspiring. Taking thing for granted seems to be a major disposition of humans. Yesterday I read another article on facebook, about a 104 year-old Japanese doctor’s health advices. While I appreciated most of them, one advice struck me hard: “Energy does not come from sleeping a lot or eating well, it comes from feeling good” Well, I hope the doctor did not mean literally (or maybe the translation wasn’t accurate due to the confusion of Japanese language?), because the fact in front of me is that if we don’t eat and sleep but just feeling good, we die, and die with horrible feeling. As simple as that.

To be specific humans’ energy does come from foods. Sleep doesn’t provide energy but the importance of it is also crucial to our health.

Since I lived with chronic health problem for ages, I found, people – of course include me – tend to take physical health for granted. We apprise our mental power so much to an extend that some people literally believe feeling good is all we need to live well. The belief in our mental power is also out of proportion. During Chinese cultural revolution, a famous slogan was “The field produces as much crops as people want.” Nowaday a popular phrase goes “There are nothing you can’t do but only what you can’t imagine.” Such beliefs go on and on and it is call positive thinking and it’s panacea for all diseases and fuel for all ambitions.

Why people so insist the importance of our mental energy? I suppose the reason is exactly the same as that old man who says the Moon is more important than the Sun, that is: like the Sun, foods and sleep are there almost EVERYDAY, so we ignore the benefit of them, forgot that if we don’t have them there will be no chance for our mental power exercise.

The the Chinese article that cites the parable story above also talks about mother’s love, another thing that many people take it for granted. Yes, I believe physical health is like mother’s love, we only realize it’s importance when we lose it.

The Moon Shines in the night, brings us romantic imagination and fascination, so and so, but it’s the Sun who stays there day and light, provides the most important elements for our existence, which made all those romantic stuff possible. Yet, when we enjoy these “luxuries”, we think those are all it’s about and don’t give credit to something that’s more essential. Why? I don’t know but I suppose that shortsightedness is the flaws we humans are born with.

Yesterday, I went to public library to vote. In voting room I saw a teenager working there who looked familiar. So I asked her:”Do I know you somewhere?” “Maybe”, she said, with a voice of boy. Instantly I realized her face looked identical to a student I taught long time ago, so I gave her a hint:”I teach art.” “I was in your art classes.” “R****!” I called out her name, though with low voice. She gently nodded.

I found, not only her hair was short, her voice was also totally changed. So I thought that she must be going through sex change. However, after we talked a little, I hurried to finish my voting business, then said goodbye to her.

On the way back I talked about this with my girlfriend, who was driving. She said I might be a little imprudent by mentioning HIS previous name, because he might not want to people know about it. I agreed. I also thought, after all these years, he was still a teenager, going through sex change he must suffer both physically and mentally, and my reaction of meeting him seemed a bit “cold”. So I told my girlfriend that I wanted go back to give him a hug. Instantly, she turned the wheel around.

Back in voting room I walked directly to him and said:”I came back because I owe you a hug.” He broke into a wholehearted smiled and we hugged, during which I told him that I was proud of him. Then we exchanged some more words and I said goodbye again.

Long time ago I read Ellen Degeneres’ mother’s biography Love, Ellen, in which she wrote about the moment when Ellen confessed to her about her lesbian secret. Her reaction was giving her daughter a hug, because what jumped in her mind first, was that her daughter had been suffering. I could never forget this detail of the book, because it made such a striking contrast with many of those parents who ditched their gay children.

I do not have children, but I am proud of what I did yesterday.

Yes, let’s spread LOVE, not hatred.

unconditional.
unconditional. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

We all need love. This is because that love make us feel connected to others, and this connection eases, or even eliminates our biggest fear: loneliness. Thus love becomes the greatest – sometime the only – reason for us to live.

But, unfortunately, love from others are not entirely secure. It comes and goes without warning and it’s not within our controls. This is because love from others usually is “conditional”, which means it happens only if we possess certain conditions, such as physical beauty, wealth, social status, etc. So without these conditions, we are in danger of losing love. But, if one possesses a type of love that is “unconditional”, he/she would feel the most secure in his/her life, because this love is provided regardless how he/she is, and stays with him/her as long as he/she lives. 

So where does unconditional love come from? I found that they mostly come from two sources: 1, parents; 2, one’s own.

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(Some very light spoilers)

I had never heard of Ted Bundy’s name before until I saw part of his documentary (20/20?) very recently. I was immediately fascinated by his case for one conscious reason: his look. He didn’t look like a bad person, rather, he looked handsome, educated, sensitive and extremely charismatic. So I did a little research and found a book to read: Ann Rule’s Stranger Beside Me.

English: Ted Bundy in custody, Florida, 1978 o...

English: Ted Bundy in custody, Florida, 1978 or 1979. Florida Memory Project, Florida Photographic Collection, #DND0671 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

This is the first true crime book I’ve ever read. I found it extremely riveting. And The most extraordinary part is the fact that Bundy was actually Rule’s “good” friend for many years. They both worked as partners in a suicide support center Crisis Clinic in Seattle, WA., and built a warm friendship since then. As matter of fact, Rule had no slightest idea that at the time they worked together, Bundy already started his hideous killing. Rule had always believed him as a kind, friendly and intelligent young man with a bright future.


Rule herself worked in criminal justice system and has been a crime writer ever since, so it makes perfect sense that she should write a book about Ted Bundy – a most notorious serial killer of all time. The book is extremely long (over 600 pages), pretty much chronologically documented, with accurate details of events and crime scenes. The entire main body of this book – which is the first edition that was published before Bundy’s execution – was inconclusive about Bundy’s guilt. It is in the “forward” – which was written years after the first edition, Bundy’s guilt is confirmed by his own confession, and finally was electrocuted in January 1989. And 10 years after the “forward”, Rule added another “final chapter”. It seems like that Ted Bundy had been haunting Ann Rule most of her life, and would continue do so.

I found Rule’s writing style straightforward yet inviting, and the facts she accumulated in this books are invaluable. I was drawn right into this book due to 2 reasons: the friendship between the author and the killer, and the mythical (or “magical”) ways the killer conducted his crimes . I literally could not put down during the first 60% of book. The rest of book still contains some extremely important events, but I had to admit that there are also some irrelevant trivial matters as well, such as author’s personal life, tedious legal processes, etc., or I was just tired. Nonetheless, my interest in Ted Bundy drove me through the whole book, from back to back.

Bundy brutally murdered dozens, possibly over 100 young women. The manners he employed were extremely brutal and violent, such as strangulation or blowing victims’ heads with whatever tools on hand. I didn’t read any evidences or descriptions on how he tortured or raped victims during the time they were still alive. It seems, as a notorious necrophilia, he performed most sexual abuses after victims were dead. The way he captured his crimes were all so “ingenious” that lots of them were abducted in public places, and he was never caught during and after his crimes. And there were hardly any hard evidences to convict him. He was actually first arrested by keeping burglary tools in his car!

Bundy claimed he was innocent all the way through his trials which lasted over a decade long, confessed only some of his murders – which were still over 30! – merely a couple of days before his execution. Many people believed his innocence – especially women, even after overwhelming evidences (mostly circumstantial) provided in courts. Bundy never lacked female supporters during his trials, he even got married during his trial.

There’s no doubt that Bundy was an extremely intelligent person. He excelled in school when he wanted to; he escaped from prison twice (the second time was quite Houdini-like); his charming personality and repartee not only made him the most popular male criminal among women (include many of his victims), but also impressed his friends, coworkers, even later his defense team members and his judges; he was knowledgeable in psychology, criminology and law, which gave him advantage in committing his crimes. The fact is, he could have led a successful normal life that any men would envy, both career and personal life wise, still, he chose the otherwise.

Though Rule for long time believed that Bundy was mentally ill, thought he should be put in mental hospital instead of prison, both psychiatrists and psychologists did not find him mentally ill, or “incompetent”. They did diagnosed him as “multi personality disorder”. As matter of fact, he fired most of his defense lawyers so he could present himself during most of his trials. He was 100% mentally lucid, yet he lied so well that even when Ann Rule finished her first edition of this book – which was years after Bundy was arrested, she was still not 100% convinced Bundy was guilty.

I have to ask, what made people so blind? Or maybe the right question should be: what made Bundy – such a seemingly charming person – so evil? Was it because he was a illegitimate? Was is because his trouble childhood? His violent grandfather? Or, was it because he was rejected by his first love? Or all of these combined? Or maybe he was simply a born evil? I can’t find a sure answer for my questions, all I can say by far is that, we humans are “products” of extreme complication. To make a criminal like Ted Bundy, probably would take as much as it’s needed to make a genius. It’s also very hard for me to believe that there was no love, no humane side inside this person’s mind. I rather believe he did have a heart, but just at the same time his vast mental and emotional possessions drove him into something so tragic and so devastating.

Notwithstanding, as a person who is so interested in human psyche, I found it’s invaluable to study such a person’s life and mind. We should not let him go without any scrutinizing his inner world, for the sake of preventing future crimes. And I am just glad to see there’s plenty of books about him.

It was in the “last chapter” we could find some details of Bundy’s execution. Though Rule’s writing style is not “graphic”, I found it hard to go through. Bundy was known for his confidence demeanor, but based on one eye witness, he entered the death chamber with a shaking head and quivering knees.  As a person who often pondering life and death, I found death by execution is way more cruel than by accidents, or some violence during wars or physical conflicts. When a person know he/she is going to die, the fear is more than a normal human being could bear. I believe Dostoevsky had some serious thoughts and writings about this subject, because he had once almost executed by firing squad. I don’t know others, but if I had to die, I probably die with a violent blow than to be tied into that “old sparky” (nick name for the electric chair that killed Bundy and many other criminals) and electrocuted. I still hold my ambivalent attitude toward death penalty, and if we could not get rid of it, we should definitely get rid of electric chair – somehow it looks so much more fearful than other mothods.

Nonetheless, whenever he is now, I hope Ted Bundy finds his peace. And “peace and love to all the innocents you destroyed.” (Ann Rule)

A sick culture mistakes happiness for selfishness, indifference for callousness; a shallow culture mistakes sternness for meanness, profoundness for depression.

I found there is a type of persons, who would always let others make choices for them. Or, if they know what to choose, they would “design” a complicated scenario to force others to choose for them. The “benefit” of acting like this is that when things don’t go as they expected, they don’t have to be responsible.

i.e., when they no longer love or like someone, instead of saying: “sorry I don’t love you.” or “I am sorry to say that I’ve been feeling very difficult to be your friend.” they would say:” Do you still love me or not?” “Do you still want to be me friend or not?”

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